Before Brian, I didn’t really know what a healthy relationship was. There were things I never cared for with my exes, things that I thought were normal. A part of me always settled, truthfully. My parents had an awful marriage, there was little communication, plenty of arguing, and no real sign of affection. I was in denial for many years that I had poor communication, until I met Brian. He has worked with me patiently this last year, never giving up on me. Tonight he told me I communicate so much better compared to the start of our relationship. That made me happy. He makes me happy, and I’ve never been this genuinely happy with anybody before. A lot of the time I’d lie to myself, thinking if I said it, that maybe I’d start to believe it. I realize how selfish that sounds, and it shames me. Truly.
But I appreciate him, and I love every single thing about him. I realize now that I don’t need someone to be my happiness all the time, I just want someone to be happy with. Whether it’s sharing ice cream cake and watching Netflix, or driving around and going to a beach, he knows how to have fun. He’s not an angry person, I’ve never seen him so upset and rude, that I have to turn away. He would never hurt anybody, or anything. He’s beautiful.
He has helped me become a stronger, more independent, and easier going person. Meeting him last year, at a time when I was jaded, and upset over work, was really the best thing that happened to me. I didn’t see it then, but come November he was growing on me. We didn’t start out perfectly in the beginning, it was very rough at times, but now we’re nothing but smooth sailing. Even in conflict. I’m so proud of him for how hard he has worked, for how he strives to always be healthier and happier. He is the definition of strong. I know nothing in life is permanent or comes with a contract, but I hope this train ride never stops. He is someone that I can truly see myself growing old with, and it’s nice to know my other half feels the same way about me. Through thick and thin, I’m going to be there for him. Wherever he goes, I go. I just love him so much.